Down and Out

I've said this before and I'm gonna say it again I HATE MONEY. Its bad enough having it depress me a little and the fact that I gotta somehow dig myself out of this "hole" I put myself in. A world without the need/want of money would be one of the happiest places on earth (F.U disneyland). I am looking for another job. Better pay, at least around the $9.50-$10/hr range. I'm still a full-time student and really honestly don't know when I'll actually have time to invest more hours in a job just yet. But in the mean time I've got bills to pay. I know its my fault for spending money on running races, running shoes/gels etc, iPhone plan, BananaRepublic clothes, and trips to the mainland.

My boyfriend and parents agreed to support me in the mean time. I know my mom is always gonna bail me out somehow, but I don't expect my boyfriend to. Apparently I'm too prideful to accept help from others, and this is true, i am. For the longest time I didn't want help from anyone because I was too shy to ask, but later on that turned into me not needing the help from others because I felt like I could figure it out by myself. I've always kept this independent part of me alive and accepting the help from a man, probably something i thought I'd never had to settle for. I blame my grandma for instilling that in me. She always said not to let a man carry you (financially). Be Independent! Be in charge of yourself! I love my grandma for being such a feminist :) But I do believe that us women need to lower our gaurds and actually put our ego's and pride aside when we really need it. I don't want to be baby'd or considered a gold digger. Until I can climb out of this "hole", then I can stand on my own again.